Quantum Theology

October 30, 2005

Choices Choices…

Filed under: Uncategorized — michael.dufel @ 4:43 pm

I have a rather serious problem. There are a lot of things that I want to do, and a lot of them by their nature conflict with each other. In engineering, you did your job well if you can have your cake and eat it too. I want to do everything without compromises. Alas, I feel that this falls into the category of an NP-Hard problem. This is none other than a hamiltonian cycle.

I would like to (in no particular order):

  • Live in a ghetto on a poverty level wage (about $800 a month)
  • Go back to school and get a masters degree
  • Purchase a house
  • Purchase a cabin and some land in the mountains somewhere
  • Work at a ski resort in Colorado and spend the whole winter snowboarding
  • Work at a coffee shop for free
  • Travel through europe on a motorcycle
  • Take my career to the next level
  • Be a secret agent
  • Find a good woman to marry

October 25, 2005

Obsession

Filed under: Theology — michael.dufel @ 4:41 pm


What can I do with my obsession
With the things I cannot see
Is there madness in my being
Is it the wind that moves the trees
Sometimes you’re further than the moon
Sometimes you’re closer than my skin
And you surround me like a winter fog
You’ve come and burned me with a kiss

And my heart burns for you
And my heart burns for you

And I’m so filthy with my sin
I carry pride like a disease
You know I’m stubborn, Lord
And I’m longing to be close
You burn me deeper than I know
And I feel lonely without hope
And I feel deperate without vision
You wrap around me like a winter coat
You come and free me like a bird.

And my heart burns for you
And my heart burns for you

- Martin Smith

I will never be so eloquent to write something like this. If I could write something of this quality, I might write this exact song.

This obsession is the core of by being. This is the most fundamental driving force in my life. Nobody could hope to understand me unless they understand this obsession with finding God.


So justice is far from us, and righeousness does not reach us. We look for light, but all is darkness; for brightness, but we walk in deep shadows. Like the blind we grope along the wall, feeling our way like men without eyes. At midday we stumble as if it were twilight; among the strong, we are like the dead. We all growl like bears; we moan mournfully like doves. We look for justice, but find none; for deliverance, but it is far away. For our offenses are many in your sight, and our sins testify against us. Our offenses are ever with us, and we acknowledge our iniquities: rebellion and treachery against the Lord, turning our backs on our God, fomenting oppression and revolt, uttering lies our hearts have conceived.

Isaiah 59

How True

October 16, 2005

Reflections On The Past Year

Filed under: Uncategorized — michael.dufel @ 4:40 pm

Happy Birthday to me!!

So, what did I do last year?
What did I do right?
What did I do wrong?
Would I change anything?

It was a year of great personal growth, and spiritual chaos. Depending on who you talk to, that was eith spiritual regression or spiritual maturity. Would I change things, or do them differently? I don’t know. I sure didn’t ask for chaos and confusion, but they came without my asking. They make me who I am, for better or worse. Only the wisdom that comes with hindsight will be able to discern the consequenses of my choices.

It was the year that I discovered the motorcycle - and the joy that comes with riding the mountain passes. Some good times were had riding with Brent. Some equally good times just riding on my own, enjoying life to the full.

It was a year of sacrifice in preparation for my eventual re-location. Of time off not taken. Of an epic snow season not enjoyed - a snowboard left to languish in the closet. Of a summer spent in working overtime for ‘the man.’

It was a year of career growth. A year of boredom followed by sheer terror. A summer spent working long hours, followed by the satisfaction of success.

It was the year I jumped into life with both feet and discovered that I can indeed swim - and swim with vigor.

It was a year of holding back, and of letting go. A year to be remembered, not forgotten.

October 4, 2005

One In Three Adults Unchurched

Filed under: Theology — michael.dufel @ 4:37 pm

One in Three Adults Is Unchurched

March 28, 2005

(Ventura, CA)Despite widespread efforts to increase church attendance across the nation, the annual survey of church attendance conducted by The Barna Group shows that one-third of all adults (34%) remain “unchurched.” That proportion has changed little during the past five years. However, because of the nation’s population continuing growth, the number of unchurched adults continues to grow by nearly a million people annually.

Religious Activity

The research confirms that millions of unchurched people are spiritually active. For instance, one out of every five reads the Bible in a typical week; six out of ten pray to God each week; and during the past year 5% have shared their faith in Jesus Christ with people who are not professing Christians. In fact, nearly one million unchurched adults tithe their income – that is, donate at least 10% of their annual household revenue to non-profit entities. While these tithers are not giving their money to a church, they are giving to a variety of parachurch ministries that serve people throughout the world.

During a typical month, six out of ten unchurched adults worship God (but not via church services); three out of ten study the Bible; and one out of every seven has times of prayer and Bible reading with family members. The religious media play a part in their spiritual life, too, with four out of ten absorbing Christian content through television, radio, magazines or faith-based websites during a typical month. In addition, one-quarter of them have conversations with one or more friends who held them accountable for carrying out their faith principles.

One explanation for this significant degree of religious involvement is that only one-quarter of this group (24%) are atheists and agnostics. One-fifth (20%) are adults who are aligned with a non-Christian faith. The remaining 56% are people who consider themselves to be Christian. In fact, 15% of the unchurched are born again Christians: they have made a personal commitment to Jesus Christ that they deem important in their life, and believe they will go to Heaven after death because of their confession of sin and acceptance of Jesus Christ as their savior.

Religious Beliefs

The belief profile of unchurched Americans veers from mirroring the beliefs of most Americans to differing substantially. The unchurched are similar regarding their contention that Satan is a symbol of evil but not a living entity (67% believe this); that if people are good enough they can earn their way into Heaven (61%); and that Jesus committed sins during His time on earth (51%).

However, the unchurched adults significantly stray from the national norm on other questions. They are only half as likely to firmly believe that the Bible is accurate in all that it teaches (25% agree with that notion); are less likely to possess a biblical view of God (only 46% see Him as the “perfect, all-knowing, all-powerful Creator of the universe” who still rules His creation today); and are less likely to believe that the most important purpose of life is to “love God with all your heart, mind, strength and soul” (63% agree).

When compared to past studies in which the unchurched were asked identical questions about their beliefs, the current research shows that there has been little change in the spiritual perspectives of the unchurched in the past decade.

Emerging Patterns

There have been some discernible shifts in the characteristics of the unchurched population over the past decade. The church dropout rate among people who define themselves as being somewhere middle-of-the-road on political issues is escalating faster than among those who are either conservative or liberal. And the Northeast continues to harbor the largest percentage of unchurched adults of any other region in the country. Currently, 42% of adults in the Northeast have no church involvement.

Another surprise is that Catholics, whose doctrine defines absence from weekly church services to be a sin, are more likely than Protestants to stray from church events. Some of that gap is attributable to the above average percentage of Hispanics who have dropped out of the local church (41% of them are unchurched).

Young adults are more resistant to church life than are people from older generations. In fact, an analysis of church attendance data covering the past two decades indicates that the two younger generations are more resistant to church life than the Baby Boomers were at a similar point in their development.

Surprisingly, “downscale” individuals (i.e., no college degree, below average household income) also are much more likely than their “upscale” counterparts (i.e., college graduates with above-average household income levels) to stay away from local churches.

For more detailed information about the views and behaviors of the unchurched, and how Christian churches have reconnected with them, read George Barna’s book, Grow Your Church From the Outside In. Click here for more information

A Perspective On The Unchurched

Having studied church attendance patterns for more than twenty years, researcher George Barna suggested that the consistent resistance to church life in recent years is indicative of a historic shift in the nation’s spiritual vision. “To view the plateaued level of the unchurched population as simply an indication of stagnation in religious behavior is naive. There are, indeed, millions of unchurched people who want nothing to do with organized religion or spiritual development. The more important trend, however, is that a large and growing number of Americans who avoid congregational contact are not rejecting Christianity as much as they are shifting how they interact with God and people in a strategic effort to have a more fulfilling spiritual life. This data, combined with other studies we have recently been conducting, suggests that we are on the precipice of a new era of spiritual experience and _expression.”

Barna expects the percentage of adults who are unchurched to grow during the coming decade. “For the past few years the percentage has leveled off,” he explained. “However, the emergence of a national body of spiritual leaders who are assisting unchurched people in their quest for spiritual depth through means and relationships that are outside the usual institutional vehicles is significant. We anticipate substantial growth in the number of people who are not connected to a congregational church but who are committed to growing spiritually. It would not be surprising to witness a larger slice of the born again population shift from the ‘churched’ to ‘unchurched’ column of the ledger over the next ten years. What’s amazing about the coming transition is that it is likely to occur without any real decline in activities such as Bible reading, prayer, tithing, family faith activity or service to the needy. The people involved will be altering the locus of their activity without diminishing the intensity of their commitment to God and to their faith.”

Research Source and Methodology

The data reported in this summary are based upon telephone interviews with a nationwide random sample of 1003 adults conducted in January 2005 by The Barna Group. The maximum margin of sampling error associated with the sample of parents is ±3.2 percentage points at the 95% confidence level. All non-institutionalized adults in the 48 continental states were eligible to be interviewed and the distribution of respondents coincided with the geographic dispersion of the U.S. adult population. Households selected for inclusion in the survey sample received multiple callbacks to increase the probability of obtaining a representative distribution of adults. The data cited from studies in prior years are based on national surveys of random samples of 1000 or more adults conducted during the same time period of the respective years described, using the same survey questions to measure the items addressed in this report.

“Born again Christians” were defined in these surveys as people who said they have made “a personal commitment to Jesus Christ that is still important in their life today” and who also indicated they believe that when they die they will go to Heaven because they had confessed their sins and had accepted Jesus Christ as their savior. Respondents were not asked to describe themselves as “born again.” Being classified as “born again” is not dependent upon church or denominational affiliation or involvement.

October 3, 2005

Feodor Dostoevsky

Filed under: Theology — michael.dufel @ 4:36 pm

To believe that there is nothing more beautiful, more profound, more sympathetic, more reasonable, more manly, more perfect than Christ, and not only is there nothing but I tell myself with jealous love, there can be nothing. Besides, if anyone proved to me that Christ was outside the truth and it really was so that the truth was outside Christ, then I would prefer to remain with Christ than with the truth.

Feodor Dostoevsky

I have had my own battle with ‘Christ vs Truth’. Truth does not bring comfort when you are alone with the shadows in the dark watches of the night. Truth does not bind the brokenhearted, nor free those enslaved in their own depravity. Truth does not bring hope to the hopeless, nor joy to the downtrodden. My own search for Truth will continue until my last breath, but I will not pin all I have on this search - for it may well prove fruitless. There is a power that is Christ that is self evident - even if truth should say otherwise. I have tested and found that the foundation of Christ is more firm than the foundation of truth. Though truth may depart from me, I will not depart from Christ.

Tragic, Sad Times

Filed under: Uncategorized — michael.dufel @ 4:34 pm

- I have been going back to my old church for the last 3 weeks. I have walked in carrying a single book: Soul Survivor:How 13 Unlikely Mentors Helped My Faith Survive the Church. How’s that for irony.

- I wanted desperatly to play a song on my guitar early this morning. I couldn’t because I can’t do more than strum a couple of chords - and it was 4:30 in the morning and the roommies were sleeping.

- If I had an extra room, I would let this one person I know sleep there - for free even. I can’t because I don’t have a place of my own because it’s two fucking expensive to live here!!!!

- And the MOST tragic thing - ironic even - my brand new tires are the cleanest part on my car!

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